It's always nice to wake up to a dozen roses on your night stand, then spending your anniversary in a fabulous dress with free chinese food and a violent movie. ^_^

I love my life. (for right now atleast)

Now I just need money >_

So, I haven't been on this website in just about a million years. Well, two years. But still.
I was reading past entries and realized how sad and pathetic I was. But a lot has changed. I have an amazing boyfriend who actually cares about me other then the other idiots I've gone out with. My parents moved out to bumblefuck. I found out who my real friends are and who my fake ones where and in the process made some new ones ^__^-I've also lost touch with a lot. I have a new job with some new amazing people who won't take advantage of me as opposed to the old ones at my old amazing job (>.<) I've bounced between collages and might just be in school forever.
In other words, I've grown up a lot, I'm still sad but atleast I'm not pathetic ^_^ haha

I've also just realized that I think I just posted this to no one haha

Last Friday was Sum41 and it was freaking amazing.
i have battle wounds :)

Tuesday was The Birthday Massacre with Kat and Sara
that was also amazing.
I saved Chibi's life and caught M. Falcores pick.

well, by saved life, i mean while crazy fans where trying to pull her in the crowd, i pushed her back on stage.

that crowd was scary, me and this other chick where like wtf?
but whatever.
it was still fun.

WEE: No Mercy is on Sunday.
then sometime in November is hellyeah(maybe)

i duno, i might throw pictures up here later.
thats all i can really write, i'm at work and paul broke our internet again

WOO-HOO!!

so i've been thinking (yeah, i know, wow stfu morons) about a bunch of stuff and how so much has changed.
and really, im all for change, but when it starts to cause a giant rift between me and my friends, it begins to bother me after a while.
i have to find a way to fix it before i just wind up losing it all completly.

There was this boy Sam( i'm not going to reveal his last name in concideration for his family) who was diagnosed with cancer. He was sadly taken from us this morning. But i guess it was all for the best.
I just feel terriable about it though. I mean we did SO much to try and keep it all going so this wouldnt happen.
I went around school begging for people for money, people i didnt even know.
I didnt know that it was getting this bad, and i still can't get over that it happened.
i cant help but think of him, his family, friends and girlfriend when it happened.
i know that sounds morbid or whatever. but still.
i wish that tehre was more that we could of done, i guess the thousands of dollars that we raised wasnt enough.
ugh, i feel sick to my stomach now.

Luck and Love and My Prayers go out to his family

Sam, Rest in Peace
you will be missed by many.

(August 17th, 2007)

So today was the start of my senior year, and it was really good


Schedule:

Anatomy~ i love it, Dr. Egly is really funny. i have herd nothing but good things about him
Dance Exercise~ i took it last year, its nothing, Mrs Hubbard still remembers me haha, i can get away with pretty much anything, its amazing haha
Study Hall~ There is four people in there haha.
Senior Lunch~ an hour of food. hmmm..
Shakesphere~ ugh, my teachers nice, does that count?
Painting~ oh dear, Its Me, Torrence, Ashlee, Angelia and Kelsie in there, Mr. G is really glad to have me and Angelia back :)
Writing Fiction~ its fun, at least it should be, the teacher looks like she could be a kid though haha


thats pretty much the jist of it.
Doug is picking me up in like 5 mins and i look dead.
so
untill then my loves!

So i just got my industrail done, and, ya know, im not going to lie, it really freaking hurts.
but it looks neat, im fond of it haha





like?
im going to go bite my hand and pretend my ear doesnt hurt.

Laterdays!

second dates are fun :)

especially when he brings you coffee

i think that i just went to the funniest funeral, ever.
i know that sounds horrible.
but seriously, it was really funny.

The Pastor
~ Had an Earring
~ Wore a microphone, then went up to the podium and talked into the microphone up there. I guess he felt the need to make his booming voice, that sounded like a grown up Timone from the Lion King btw, echo through the Chapel.
~ He had these sandels on that made him eaither look like a greek god, or a greek monster (ya know, like the cyclops or somthing, where they had the flip flop look a likes on with the two toes)
~ The music was just entirely to funny, it was some guy that sounded like he had 12 different accents.

Then my cousin John started talking.
He kept comparing my great aunt Sophie to "The Energizer Bunny"
i was dying.
then he started to cry.
so of course me being me, cried.

its strange not really knowing who your family is. ya know?
Like, i haven't seen any of these people since i was about, what? 2 years old?
christ.
I don't know if its just me or what, But I think that it's strange when your own family says to you
"oh it is so nice to finally meet you"

Cousin John was talking to us about how he regretted not seeing his grandma (aunt sophie) as much, and honestly, It has been about two years since my Grandma passed away, and I still regret not going to see her as much as I really could of.

i guess i thought that i had more time?
but really, not a day goes by that i dont miss my nana.




on another note.
my dads side of the family was/is really creepy.
They where telling stories about like, how my grandma had her way of saying goodbye, and my aunt sophie had hers.


My grandma had sort of waited i guess?
She was in a coma for a while, but she snapped out of it. my father said somthing to her, she kind of shrugged, then died.

Great Aunt Sophie, when she died, Pictures of her family fell off the shelf of her hutch, there was no damage to anything, pictures still in tact, glass wasn't broken, the frame wasn't even damaged.
and the home nurse said that had to be a very short while after she passed because her body temp barely dropped.



Creepy how things work out that way.

Wizard world is tomorrow.
That will be big fun :)

Ciao kids!

Today, I bought my Tickets For Sum 41.
They're comming to the Metro ( *dances* ) Friday September 28th.

seriously, i used to be like, in love with them.
Then "Chuck" came out and it let me down a little.
it soon became like a relationship gone wrong.
but then their new album came out and it is amazing.
old sum came back, and i did my happy dance.

i honestly feel like such a nerd.
but really, they where (and still is) one my my favourite bands.

i will be outstide of the metro at 6 a.m
and there aint nothing anyone can do about it.

my goal for standing in line all freaking day.
meet cone.
back in like 5th grade, when i first herd of them, it was like my goal to marry that man.
now i realize that it is completly impossible.
but back then i still lived in a fantasy world where anything could happen.
well, i mean, now that im older, i could stalk him and stuff. but really, im not that creepy.


on another note.

my summer classes at columbia have ended.
my FINAL year at stagg is beginning.
I'm semi looking foward to it, only because now, i can pick on the freshmen (who completly deserve it, comeon, im not that mean).
come on, it's great to be a senior.

although my schedule is crap.
that shall be fixed.
two gym classes in a row, wtf?




Wizard world is saturday.
pictures shall be posted.
maybe.



btw. i saw a deer in my neighbors yard today, i was pulling out of the driveway and almost crashed the car.
pictures up on DA



Ciao!

so, im posting this on.. my new macbook! :)

this excites me haha, like, really, this week has been really awesome.

get a new computer, that will not die because no one else will touch it with out my permisson (haha)

sadly though, Lordi got cancelled.

unforantly, the Metro wasnt a big enough place for their "pyro acts"

saras gong to sneak me into ozzfest so i can see them anyway.
but still. lordi at the metro. could of been amazing.

school starts in like 10 days, major bummer.

the humidty wont go away, twice the bummer.



we went to shaunies today and watched Orgazmo, the WORST movie ever.
okay, so maybe not worse, but it is still super stupid.
Jufs choice, go figure.


Wizard world is saturday, im going as catowoman, i gave up on my Zantanna outfit haha.
Sara is going as wonderwoman.
Vasel is going as Leon from Resident Evil.
Juf is gay and isnt going as anything.


its freaking pouring out.

im babbling like an idiot but you know when you get a new toy and you cant stop playing with it? haha


anywhore. i guess thats it for now.


Night Kiddies


ps: monster coffee is the BEST thing ever haha

tomorrows my birthday :D

i cant wait!

Q101 block party was really good.
Sum 41 is love.
GC was good.

some guy punched me in the face.
3 days later.
my nose still hurts. aha.
yeah.
shut up.


im at buddys for her birthday party.
i feel bad being on her computer.


lovelove.
im off

Go Ducks!!
Knew you could win the cup!

my mom and i went out to lunch today.
and i saw a man that walked in and he had a vest on that said "Veitnam Vets" on it
and i went up to him and asked him if he was a vet.
and he said yes.
and i interduced my self, said shook his hand and said thank you.
he looked completly shocked, like "theres this teenage kid saying thanks to me" "wow"
i felt warm and fuzzy.
He wound up buying us our lunch.

i couldnt belive it.
i think this is one of those things that i wont forget.
my us history teacher is working his way into my head.

say thanks? alright?
even if you're like me and dont support the war(or any war), you shouldn't be against the soliders

Yesterday i went to Alan Jackson and Brooks and Dunn.

Yes. it was a Country show.

Yes. I had fun :)

shutup.
i grew up on that music and i like it!
im not going to deny it.

B&D brought out a Honor Gaurd ( Marine,Navy,Army,and Air ForceSoliders)
They had laid out a flag, a soliders boots and helmet.
my mum and i choked up a little at that.

They had a good set.
They looked like they where having fun.

Alan had an alright set.
He kinda just stood there.
but he was still really good.

He had  scenes from chicago.
he showed pictures like,
The House Of Blues.
Wrigley feild.
Cubby Bear Bar.
Us Cellular Feild.
i was a little Sad the METRO wasnt on there.
they wernt even a block away from it.
But, I supported my Metro Chicago gear.
So maybe that counts for somthing?
haha

Lesson Learned: "You can take the girl out of Honky Tonk, But you cant take the Honky Tonk out of the Girl."

Thats all i really have to say.
good show.
good seats.

im content.


Next on the List:
Friday, June 8th: Lady Soverign//Gwen Stefani
Saturday, June 16th: Q101 Bloc Party
Friday, June 29th: My Birthday :) (its a show of its own, trust me)
Wednesday, July 18th: The Moody Blues
Saturday, July 28th: Warped Tour.

Thats all i got.
Lollapalooza is up there.
but i dont remember the days

So yesterday,
i found out that i got accepted to the Summer program at Columbia College.
i was, like, major happy.

then i went to go register for my classes.
the two that i really wanted to take.
we're full :(

i'm going to try to get them everyday until the registration period is over.
i'm determined damnit!

Morrisey was yesterday.
it was love.

Aaron died one year ago today.
thats not love.
sad.

i took a few shots last night. I snuck in a camera.

but anyway, today just feels so weird.
i have like,mixed emotions.
im happy, im sad, im out of the loop, and being tired is no help.

i dont know how to feel.
i dont think that i can feel at this point.
to tired to tell.
i just realized how incrdibly dumb that sounded.

i applyed for a summer course at columbia.
i hope i get it.
pray for me?




lovelove.

It smells like spring.

Warning: Jewel Osco Causes Mental Break Downs

so, i went to the midnight showing of spidey last night.
it was actually really good.

i met up with sue :)
happy times.


3 hours of sleep is not a good idea.


2 cans of cocaine
2 cups of coffee
sugar
Large Icee
and i split a large popcorn

my stomach was deteriorating



summers party is tomorrow.
im excited :)